I havent blogged in this site for MONTHS but I still check up on a few people from here and thought I would write.  My oldest is still in constant trouble cuz of his grades.  I took him off his ADD meds but the school councelor thinks I should try a different medication since the one he was one wasnt working cuz they do see him misbehaving again.  UUUGGGHHH!!  Which I know he is misbehaving at home but I dont know what to do!  He is driving me insane.  The other 2 kids are doing just fine.  Stephen is excited about Xmas and Madi is her typical terrible 2 self!  LOL  Hope everyone is doing fine.

Here is my new blog site... 

Sorry I havent written in over a month but problems with the puter plus if I check anyone elses blog from this site then the pop ups add stuff to the puter which causes it to wrong SSSSLLLLOOOOOOWWWW so right now I can check this one from my parents house!  WOOHHHOOOOO!!!!

I found out my son has ADD and of course his dad is totally against this so another huge fight with us.  I wish for once he would support me in something.  I didnt want him having ADD and i have put off seeing if my son does have this for 4 yrs cuz I dont want him medicated but it doesnt look like anything else can help it since its in his brain!  UUUGGGHHHH!!!  The teachers and I had to fill out some questionaires about how he behaves and that was the conclusion from these that he does have ADD!  Its the inattentiveness not the hyperactivity.  Any help that can be given would be greatly appreciated!  TY!!!!!!!!!!!!

This past weekend flew by.  It was an uneventful weekend but all went well.  I did some shopping on Sat and got some new summer clothes for Madison and got the boys some outside toys for the summer so hopefully they wont bitch there is nothing to do  (YEAH RIGHT)

I picked up the boys at Adams new place.  Its a nice house and plenty of room in the back yard for the kids to play.  Madi loved being outside and running since it was sooooo nice out.   Sorry this will be short but not much to write about!

Once again Friday is here.....wwwooohhhoooo!  The boys are off to their dads for the weekend.  They are excited cuz he moved last weekend so now they can stay at the new place.  Him and his gf are renting a 3 bdr house along with his brother.  I still dont understand why but its not me.  The only reason I dont understand is cuz when it doesnt work out with her he will have to move AGAIN cuz no way in hell can he afford the house by himself.  YES he does need a bigger place cuz of all the kids BUT he cant afford anything bigger by himself.  He will be screwed when him and his gf break up!  Thank god its not my prob!

This weekend I am gonna do some shopping.  I am gonna get some summer clothes for Madison.  I think the boys will be OK in clothes....well maybe Kris will need some.  I am also gonna get her a sandbox and get the boys some outside toys to play with.  I spent about $300-$400 on the boys for Xmas this past yr and they dont play with anything I got them!  They say they are bored and nothing to do.  I told them next Xmas will be totally different cuz I am not wasting any $ on shit they dont play with.  I might buy them a gamesystem and a couple of new games and thats all cuz they are out of the toy stage so I dont know what else to do!

I should have blogged about this sooner but I didnt so sue me!  LOL  I have a 17 month old grl and she had a hard day or as hard of a day that can happen to a 17 month old...LOL.

This happened on Monday.  We were waiting outside for my parents to pick up the kids and I to go shopping cuz Madison was getting new shoes.  Well Madi was running around and she fell and got mud all over her coat and scratched her nose up.  (Thank goodness we werent doing pictures).  We get to the mall and take her to Stride Rite.  She screams when the guy touches her foot to measure her..........I seriously wish she would get out of this stage!  Then she screams again after my mom puts on her new shoes (They have kittens on them and oh so cute) and the guy has to touch the shoes to make sure they fit.    We were leaving and the boys took off running and went through the doors.....well here comes Madi thinking Hey my big brothers just went running and so will I.....needless to say she still hasnt learned the whole glass window thing.  So in full running speed she runs smack into the glass window that was right next to the door that the boys just went through.  She bounced back and fell flat on her back, arms sprawled out and started balling her eyes out.  Well.....my parents, her brothers and I were dying laughing.  We could barely catch our breath we were laughing so hard.  DONT worry...nothing happened to Madi except a lil bump on her forehead.  Then we finally get home and someone mopped the floor and she goes walking on it and falls again!   Such a rough day for my lil grl!!!!!

So far another boring weekend is happening but its quiet!  Adam and I fought yesterday after he picked the boys up.  He didnt bother telling me his gf wasnt goin to pick up the boys till 4:30 and the only reason I found out then was I called her at that time and she said OH I am at home sick I figured Adam would have called u.  (YEAH FUCKIN RIGHT)   Sooooooo I called him at work and he said yeah I will prolly be picking them up but I dont know when!  THANK GOD  I didnt have any plans or I would have had to either cancel them or post pone them.  I was pissed because I DIDNT know till 4:30 (keep in mind his gf normally picks them up at 5 if she gets out of work on time)  I even talked to him in the morning and he didnt say a damn word.  Well after he picked up the boys he called me from his cell and was bitching on how I had no right to be pissed off at him (because the boys of course told him I was mad).  I told him I was pissed cuz I didnt know till 4:30 and I wanted to go out for dinner and didnt have the $ to include the boys.  Well then he was telling me how the boys told him that I never take them out for dinner....cough cough.........  Um yes I DO!!!!!  But of course I said I do and pointed out one instance that I did and of course after hanging up the phone with him I thought of 4 other instance that I took the boys out to eat.  Shit that is the only thing I do when the boys arent here and I maybe do that once a month.  GGGRRRRRRRRR!!!!!  MEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!     If he wouldnt tell me things at the last minute then I wouldnt be pissed off!  IF the tables were turned he would have been soooooooo pissed off at me.  I think I need to turn the tables on him one time and c how he likes it but of course he wont understand it and on why I did something like that!    UUUUGGGHHHHHH!!!! 

Right now I am at my parents house waiting to go out for dinner and to half price books so I can turn in my books to get other ones.  Madi is napping so i thought I would get on here and rant and rave!  LOL

Kris's conference went well but Adam didnt go.  He wasnt feeling well.  UGH!  Kris's main problems are taking his time doing work and double checking and also not worrying what everyone else is doing and concentrate on himself.   He brought his grades up to D's so now he has to bring them up to C's for his report card or he will be grounded again but for now he is off grounding since he brought them up from F's.   Things are soooo different then when I was in school.  Everything is more concentrated on Math, reading and writing because of these proficiency tests and Ohio law. 

This weekend the boys go to Adams so I get a lil break and boy do I need it.  Today and Monday they are off of school and they are already driving me nuts by fighting over stupid stuff so thank god I have a 2 day break in between.  LOLOL

This past weekend went well.  Stephen had a great birthday.  Adam came out to dinner with us on Sunday and we all had fun and he actually paid for me and the kids!  I was shocked!!!  Today he is supposed to come to town for Kris's conference with his teachers so that should be interesting.  Today is interim day so I should know whether or not Kris is off grounding.  After 3 math tests he brought home yesterday I seriously doubt he will be off grounding.  UUUUUGGGGGHHHHHH!!!!!!

This weekend once again flew by.  My friend Shannen called me last nite and surprised me by doing so.  I havent talked to her in yrs on the phone.  I have heard from her through email but nothing any big deal and now she calls me.  WOW!  Something is up with her.  She lives in Michigan and wants to come down for the weekend to catch up with some of my old friends cuz she misses all the fun we had in High School hanging out.  She is married with 3 boys and I think something is going on with her marriage cuz she didnt want to discuss her husband.  She said things arent well.  She kept talking about all the fun we had in HS and what she remembers and how she wants to go out and have fun again without kids.  So I told her I will try to contact those people and c what I can do.  Hopefully it will work out cuz I havent hung out with my old friends in YEARS!  (Thats a whole other story to explain why I dont hang out with them and maybe that will be next blog)  I emailed both my friends so hopefully I will hear back from them soon.  One of them is a friend of mine but also exboyfriend of Shannens.  They didnt date long and this was back in HS so over 12 yrs ago so hopefully her ex wont think anything of it cuz I know she isnt looking to hook up with him cuz she knows he is married and she never mentioned anything of that but she just wants to catch up with him and the others.    I think that will be OK considering all the yrs that have gone by.

This weekend I did some shopping and got NEW SOCKS!  Woohoooo!  That was my exciting purchase!  All the kids and I got new socks!  How exciting!  &nbs p; NOT!  LOLOL  Adam and his gf dropped the boys off and stayed a lil bit to see Madison.  She wanted nothing to do with him till he was leaving.  She held out her hands and Adam picked her up and took her outside.  <MY MOUTH DROPPED SINCE SHE LET HIM DO THIS> and she was just looking around and pointed to his car and he brought her to his car and put her in the back in between her 2 sisters.  I stayed inside around the corner so she wouldnt see me and ruin this great moment.  She sat in the car and smiled and laughed.  Finally he motioned for me to get her and so I did!  I was sooooo shocked she was willing to go with him considering the hour that he was here to c her  She wouldnt go to him or give him hugs or play with him.   I think its great that she did tthat.  I am wondering if she would have actually gone with him.    I think next time we should put the carseat in his car and c if she would leave with him.  That will be interesting!

Next weekend is Stephens bday (Sunday).  Sooooooo on Sat we are going to my parents for Pizza and they can give him his gifts which are books.  Then on his bday his dad is still coming and we are going to Meijers so Stephen can pick out what he wants from his dad and spend his bday gift card from me and then we are going to Applebees for dinner.  I think it will be a fun bday for him!

I cant believe Stephen is going to be 8 yrs old.  He is growing up sooooo fast and now since school has started he wants to be called Steve.  It hasnt worked out too well cuz I keep forgetting.  I dont want him to be Steve yet.  It sounds soooo grown up.  I want him to be Stephen the rest of his life..........***sigh***  

Gawd I am soooooo sick of snow.  Thank goodness the kids didnt have any school delays or closings.  I was just commenting to a friend yesterday on how all the snow has melted off the yards and BAM...its snow covered again!  I want the WARM sunny weather!  NOT hot just warm!!!!

I am thinking about starting a blog on Myspace.  I already have a profile there so I could check out my friends other blog and had to join it and it seems pretty cool.  I will let u all know what its like over there!  I already tried setting my background colors and stuff and already there was an error in doing so.....LMAO!!!!  But I am a patient person!  LOL

Thank god I am feeling better.  For the past week I have been feeling like crap.  Madison is feeling better also so thats a relief cuz she has been such a grouch.

This weekend was BORING!  I did nothing except rest cuz of me not feeling well.  Hopefully next weekend will be a lil more adventful.  The boys will be with their dad so I get time to myself a lil bit.

I still feel like shit but its a lil bit better today.  I am not as stuffy but now being in this mood I am feeling blah.  I need to get laid and that sure in the hell aint gonna happen anytime soon.  GGRRRR!!!  Adam is willing but lack of opportunity......UGH!  I am sure that would make me feel soooo much better and lift my spirits but as of right now I am still without and now its going on 18 months without!!!!!

According to what GMA (good morning america) said this morning..Today is supposed to be the most depressing day of the yr cuz of the weather and the fact that prolly noone has kept up with their New Yrs resolution.  Well yes the weather is depressing...its cold and snowy out side but as for New Yrs resolutions I really didnt make any except getting laid sometime this yr!  So yes today is depressing!  LOLOL

Since Adam didnt take the boys this weekend I was expecting a hard weekend since I wasnt feeling good BUT the boys were really good this weekend so that helped out alot!  Hopefully Adam is gonna stop by this coming weekend to visit the boys since they have been good plus he needs time with Madison.   Other than that no plans for the weekend but their is still plenty of time!

Why do kids have to be off of school???  WWWWHHHYYYYY???  I am goin insane!  The kids have been hyper since yesterday...ggggrrrrrr.  Madi has been getting into EVERYTHING...can we say she is entering the terrible 2's at 16 months.  The boys have just been wrestling, arguing, asking me 10 millions questions which are all about the same thing just different ways to ask so they DONT ask the SAME question in a row!  UGH!!!   CALGONE TAKE ME AWAY!!!  I cant wait till I take a shower so I get a lil bit of peace and quiet!  I need a sound proof room!  I remember that Cosby show and Claire got that.....WHERE'S MINE??????

Stephens bday is coming up in Feb.  Feb 13th to be exact and he is gonna be 8.  I think I am just gonna get him a Meijers gift card and let him get what he wants.  My mom got him a gift card part of his Xmas presents from her and he loved it since he could get what he wanted.  Soooo I asked him if he would like that for his bday and he said OH YEAH!!!  SO I guess that is what I will do cuz he is getting older and I have no clue what he wants anymore.  Also on the day of his bday he wants to go to Applebees and have his dad come so I talked to his dad today and he said he would come down and go out to dinner with us so that will be a fun day for Stephen.  I wanted to give him a bday party but I really dont have the $ for that so I think this will do.  Neither one of my kids have had a "real" bday party with friends cuz I have never had the $ for all that.  We always celebrate it and do something nice but i just wish I would have the $ to do something fun with their friends!  Does anyone know anything cheap to do for a bday party????

Keep in mind my boys are 10 and 8.  Bedtime should be at 9 BUT they never go to bed on time cuz of fighting or goofing around that I put them in bed at 7:30 sooooo hopefully they are sleeping at 9 and I get peace and quiet so here goes my last nite......

7:30pm-  Boys come in and give me a kiss and say good nite and I hear them going up the stairs.  Few minutes later they are back down and I shoo them back up  Few more minutes later they are back down having to say Good nite again and once again I shoo them back up  This goes on for about 15 more minutes and now i have had the final straw and said I am going to spank them if they dont go to bed

8:15pm-  I saw at the bottom of the stairs (boys didnt know I was there) so I wouldnt have to be coming out of my room constantly.  As I am sitting there I can hear the boys talking and here is the convo word for word:

Stephen (7yr old)-  U know we always go to be better if mom busts our butt

Kris (10 yr old)-  Yeah thats true  Once mom busts our butt we go to bed right away and we go to sleep

Stephen-  Well maybe we should go down and get out butts busted

Kris- Ok  Who goes first???

Stephen-  It dont matter I will

Kris-  No I will go first and get my butt busted and then its your turn

Stephen- OK

NOW my mouth is dropped when I hear this!  YES busting their butts work to get them to go to bed but its a last resort after hours of fighting with them and to hear this I soooooo wanted to die laughing.

Kris and Stephen come out of their room and see me at the bottom of the stairs shocked to see me.  Kris said we want our butts busted so we go to bed mom.  So they line up against the couch and I bust their butts...they cry....and off to bed they go and I dont hear another word from them....  can I say OMG!!!!  I go to my aunts room and just die laughing cuz I have never heard of kids WANTING their butts busted to go to bed.  Soooo what am I supposed to do?  Bust their butts everynite so they go to bed since it works and OBVIOUSLY they know it works but is that right????  hell if I know!!!  I just thought I would share this very funny story!!!  Am I the only one out there that has kids like this???  LOL

This weekend went way too fast!  LOL  But it was a good weekend.  I went shopping with my aunt on Saturday.  I didnt get anything but still had fun!  Then we went out to eat at Pleasant Ridge Chili and I havent ate their in over a yr and gawd did I miss it.  It has the best cheese fries and gravy!  Yes I said gravy!  DONT knock it till u try it!  It sounds nasty and even looks nasty but yummy yummy its soooooo good!!!!!!!

This weekend I have been doing alot of thinking!  I have ALOT of issues when it comes to my mother that has followed me through out adulthood.  Its coming close to venting everything I feel about her past and present cuz she keeps being a bitch.  ALOT of people feel the same way I do but wont tell her Nor back me up cuz they dont want to piss her off and feel the wrath of my mother.  If u dont live YOUR life the way she feels you should then she lectures and bitches and has total attitude AND she is VERY controlling.  I havent talked to my one friend in over 3 months cuz my friend got pissed cuz I wouldnt take it somewhere (cuz Madi was sick) soooooo NOW my mother talks to her and prolly vents about me to her!  How dare she!!!  This WAS my friend!  I dont think she would like it if I would call her friends and start bitching about her!  Thats the MAIN reason I DONT talk to that friend anymore cuz she does talk to my mom and she knows its pisses me off cuz its none of my moms business on some of the things they talk about.   Everytime my mom comes over to "visit"  my skin crawls and I am sooooooo tense.  The reason I use visit in quotes is cuz she ALWAYS has another agenda to visit.....like to pull my aunt in the other room and find out what I am screwing up now!  Yesterday her and my dad stopped over (UGH!) and immediately she pulled my aunt aside (hhheeeelllooooo I am 31 years old and I am NOT stupid when she does this shit) so I just sat there and talked to my dad.  Then she came back in and acted like nothing is wrong..........gggggrrrrrrrrrrr.  I was thinking about going to see a therapist about how i feel about her and to see what I can do about my issues but not sure if it would really help cuz I know whats wrong with me and what issues I have.  BUT venting them out to her PROLLY would help me get it off my chest BUT yet my mom wouldnt think anything is wrong or believe how I feel or believe she acted any certain way sooooooo why vent to her if she isnt gonna realize how she is!  I just dont know what to do!!!!  UUUUGGGGHHHHHH!!!

I am extremely bitchy today sooooo BEWARE!  Yesterday I was online for an hour and my cousins bf woke up and SAW me online and then went back downstairs.....an hour later he booted me offline and got online....ggggrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.  That soooooo pissed me off but being the nice person I am I didnt say anything!  He was online ALL DAMN DAY!!!!  Hours and hours I couldnt get back on to play!  UUUUGGGGHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!& nbsp; I sooooo need DSL!  I wish I could find a cheap DSL.

This weekend the boys go to their dads!  How fun!  I guess i will go up there on Sunday to pick them up!  Too bad Jeanine will be there or I could get laid!  UGH!  My evil mind is trying to think of ideas on how to get laid and everything I think of WONT work when it comes to finding time to be with HIM without getting caught and WITHOUT kids around!   gggggrrrrrr!