I have had the crappiest 3 days.  This past weekend wasnt anything exciting except the kids and I spent the nite at my aunts so we could help her get the rooms together.  My parents knew where I went but didnt know I was spending the nite.  I get home early afternoon and as soon as I walk in the door my mom says It would have been nice to be told u were spending the nite out.   YET...she knew where i was and Heeelllloooooo I am 30 years old and still have to tell my mother where I am going and whether or not I will be home that nite.  If she didnt know where I was then I sorta could understand it but she knew where i was with my kids.  My kids were pain in the butts all day on Sunday.  Didnt listen to a word I said!  I felt like i was talking to the walls in the house.  My aunt came over for my bday dinner and that was aight.  She gave me 3 books cuz I love to read and also batteries for my book light which i desperately need.

Monday was my bday and it sucked!  Kids didnt say happy bday to me even though they read my bday cards.   Mom said Happy bday and gave me a card and that was it.  Dad didnt say anything.    I felt more better about my bday from my internet friends then I did in real life.  It was just a crappy day all around.

Today I ran a stop sign...Ok  I slowed down to ALMOST a stop and then went and cop busted me....gggrrrrr.  I had a warrant for my arrest for not appearing to court on another traffic ticket. (NOTHING that was any big deal)  I just forgot about the court date and never showed.    So I had to be taken to a different county and get bailed out but I called my ex and he bailed me out.  I didnt want to call my parents cuz that would have been another thing I would hear about.  Luckily I was never arrested just had to pay my bond which my ex did. He was very nice about it and he drove me back home which was over an hour away.  For once he was able to pay me back on all the nice things i ever did for him!  He still owes me but at least he was there this time!  My kids stayed with my aunt while all this was going on!

I just feel like curling up in a corner and crying my eyes out!  These past few days have sucked and I just keep hoping and praying something changes!

WWOOHOOOO Its Friday.  The boys are going to their dads for the weekend so I get a lil break.  They are sooooo on my nerves today constantly fighting.  All day they have been fighting so I am glad I dont have to deal with it for the weekend.

I have no plans for the weekend but thats OK.  I will prolly be on the computer or watching movies.  Seen any good movies recently?  I cant remember the last time I have seen a movie. 

I am sitting here bored out of mind.  Nothing on TV and I am not tired yet to go to bed.  Noone is online to talk to so I get to sit here and type to whoever reads this boring thing....LOL.  At least I know one person reads this my luvly friend Katie.  Happy Bday katie!!!!!! 

Madison had a dr's appt today and she weighs 27 lbs and she is 31 1/2 inches long.  She is off the charts in both height and weight.  Her dad is 6'6" and I am only 5ft so we can see where she takes after her tallness from and she is only 11 months and she is already a size of a 1 1/2 yr old.

My son woke up this morning and his bike was stolen off the porch but then tonite he looked out the window and there it was sitting back on the porch in the same condition it was when it was left.....How wierd was that!

My back has been killing me all day today!  I hate my back problems and bone disease.  I have a bone disease called Osteogenisus Imperfecta.  I break my bones alot or at least I used to when I was younger.  I did have a slight break a couple of yrs ago.  So my bones hurt alot especially with weather changing.  I also have scoliosis and had surgery on my back when I was 15 and my back gives me constant problems to this day.  I worry about ever going back to the doctor cuz i dont want more surgery.  I am going to be screwed when I am older cuz then I will be in alot more pain than I am in now.  That is why I dont work.  Its too hard to work and then come home to take care of 3 kids when I am in total pain.  I am hoping to get disability!!!!!!

Not sure when i will write again!  Maybe tomorrow if I have time!

This has been a good day.  My parents went and got the new puppy and she is adorable.  Only 5 1/2 wks old and soooooo cute.  Her name is Daisy May. 

I checked my email this morn and saw I had an email from one of the sites I belong to and it was asking me if I wanted to become an asst manager there since I put in a letter showing interest.  I was sooooo excited cuz I love the site and have made a couple nice friends there.  So now at least I will have some thing to work on instead of just playing games at my favorite site........POGO!!!!

Well friends will be over soon so I gotta run! 

Today was very slow.  I helped my mom clean the house....Ok she cleaned and bitched and I vacuumed.  I would do more around the house but if its not done right then u get bitched at.  All i do is dishes on a daily basis and try to pick up after my kids and make sure they dont get bitched at but it doesnt ever work.  Everyday my luvly mother nitpicks at my kids over something.  At least I know where i get it from when i do it to my kids but I am trying to get them to listen to me cuz my oldest one never does.   I sooooo cant wait till I move in with my aunts...the downfall to that is she has MANY MANY cats so her house smells like cats.....UGH!  But she does have MS so I can help her house look better and HOPEFULLY smell better.  Maybe some carpet powder and Glade Plug ins will help.  My aunt definitly needs someone to be with her that will help her take care of the house and cook somewhat healty meals for her.  Her disease gets to her at times and she just cant do things like she once used to.  SO hopefully with my kids and I sometime moving there it will help her out.    If my cousins friend moves out then I will get his room and my boys will have a bedroom also that will REALLY help. 

Tomorrow the new puppy comes....YIPPEE.  I love animals.  On Saturday the kids and I are going to watch soccer games and on Sunday off to dayton I go to visit family for August bdays!  Mine bday is in 18 days!  I feel soooooooo old!  I will be 31 yrs old and have 3 kids!  I am 31 but I feel like 100 with my damn bone disease.  Oh yeah in case I didnt explain that I have Osteogenisus Imperfecta Tarde.  In short terms means weak bones.  Normal people were born with 4 callogens and I was born with 2.  SO my bone density is half of what a normal person is.  The whites of my eyes are blue and thats a sign of it.  I have had several broken bones and a couple of surgeries to fix some broken bones.  I have had scoliosis too and have had back surgery yrs ago.  My back still kills me on a daily basis so that is why i dont work.  I am going to file for disability here soon but my parents think I should work even though I am in pain everyday and have to suck it up so I can be a mom to my 3 kids.  I dont want to get addicted to pain killers that is why I dont take anything stronger than Aleve unless its an EXTREMELY bad day.    Well its getting late so off to bed i go!

This weekend was alright.  The boys went with their dad for the weekend so I sorta got some peace and quiet.  I just wish he would spend more time with the baby so she isnt screaming for him all the time when she sees him.  Then I could actually get a weekend to myself.  I havent gone out at all in almost a yr by myself.  Yes I can go to the store as long as the baby is napping but actually going somewhere with NO kids I havent done that in a yr almost.   Since Madison is actually going to my aunt now she said she will watch the kids so I can go out for my bday which is at the end of the month.  I wont know what to do with my self if I can actually find someone to go out with.  I just want to be able to go to dinner and a movie then I think i would actually feel alot better being able to get away for a few hours.

On Saturday I just went over my aunts and spent the nite over there.  Its nice to go over there cuz I have noone bitching at me about anything.  My aunt said the kids and i could start staying over there so I think I might just take her up on that offer.  Living with my parents is a pain in the ass.  My mother is such a pain and always has been and there definitly is no changing her.  I think I was the only person that wanted my parents divorced cuz my mom would treat my dad like crap so i think he would be better off without her and I still think that but after 30 yrs of marriage I am sure that they will be together till the end. 

On Sunday,  I went to the boys dads place to pick them up.  Of course i fought with my mother over this cuz she doesnt think I should have to go pick up the boys but I look at it this way..I get $ to drive up there from him and it gets me away from home for awhile.  He lives over an hour away so its gets me away for a few hours and he spends a lil bit of time with Madison even though she wont let him hold her.

Today was a do nothing day!  LOL  Kids were good so I didnt have to yell to much.  My parents are getting a new puppy on Friday so the kids and I are excited about that.  Its a Labradoodle and the pups are sooooooo cute!  Gotta run!