Today I was excited about calling that guy....Mike.  So I called him tonite and no answer.....UUUGGGHHHH!!!!  I wrote him an email and responded a few hrs later and said he would try calling later but nothing yet and its 10pm and I will be going to bed soon since I cant ever sleep in!  I did write him again saying that I left a message but he hasnt checked his email!  :-(  I was soooooooooooo disappointed!  After 4 yrs of being single I am actually considering meeting this guy so this says alot. 

Well some good news the boys are with Adam this weekend!  WOOHOOO  I have a lil bit of peace and quiet!

Long damn day!  Last nite in the middle of the nite my aunt and my cousins friend got into in the middle of the nite and he was drunk ranting and raving and waking up the whole damn house so my lack of sleep is getting to me.

Today I started talking to some guy who is from my area.  I talk to guys all the time and this one I actually want to meet.  He is 22 (9 yrs age diff) and has only been with one grl.....supposedly.  THe pic he sent he is cute in if its for real!  I just am soooooooo untrustworthy on people I talk to on here cuz I know how my ex is on here.  I am going to call him tomorrow nite and c how it goes!  He sounds very sweet and nice on the internet but that could be a line of crap just to meet me!  I am excited about talking to him.  Last time I felt like this talking to a guy, it was 3 yrs ago with a guy named Dave.  Too bad he lived 5 hours away so It didnt work out! 

Yesterday I went down to apply for Welfare which will be a temporary solution till I can apply and hopefully get SSI.  I got approved and I am sooo excited.  I will have food, a lil bit of $ and insurance.   So that is one thing off my back now I just have to apply for SSI.  I figure with my bone disease and back probs I should hopefully get it but it will just take time....grrrrrrr!

I am hoping maybe to put my kids Xmas in layaway this weekend till I get my first check and then I can get it out with that.  This weekend I am still dog sitting for my parents.  My mom bought me a lil food but not much and that pisses me off.  Its not like it takes alot to feed me and the kids but she should still buy more than just hotdogs and sandwich crap!  She is such a bitch.  Her attitude just sux!

Sorry this one is so short but I will write more when I can!

This weekend sucked!  Nothing to do... no $ and kids are home.  My oldest is driving me nuts like always. If he wouldnt argue and mouth me ALL the time then things would go alot easier.  I literally cry at times cuz he gets me sooooooo mad but its all my fault cuz I am this mean mom!  UUUGGGHHH!  Him and I got into it on Friday since they didnt have school that day and he has just been driving me nuts since then.

Today the kids went to the store with my aunt and they were running up and down the aisles with costumes on that they tried on and got yelled at by one of the clerks!  UUUGGGHHHHHH!!  I am sooooooo glad I wasnt there!  Not that they listen to me but i could have yelled or something! 

Today I go over what used to be my grandfathers house.  My mom and aunt (not the one I live with) had to sell it. A rehabber bought it to remodel it and then sell it for more.  They are in the process of remodelling and I went to just drive by it and then I ended up going in it cuz the woman who is remodeling it said I could and OMG have they changed his WHOLE house!  It really depressed me!  My grandfather built the house himself 50 yrs ago and now it doesnt even look the same inside.  I cried when I left. I knew this person would change it but seeing the walls down and things totally redone was just a shock.  I think I would have been better if I walked in after it was already done cuz I was prepared to c the change but I wasnt prepared to see walls down and nothing there.  It was just a sad feeling and it will be worse for my mom and aunt when its all done and they go see it during an open house.

I am supposed to watch my moms dog next weekend which is no big deal.  I will stay there for 5 days and 4 nights but then I asked if my mom was going to get some food there so the kids and I can eat and she seemed pissed off over that.  I figured I am watching the dog so she can feed the kids and I.  I am not getting paid to watch the dog so I just thought buying food would be OK but obviously not!  So if she isnt buying food then I guess the kids and I will starve....LOL.  My mother can be such a bitch!  I really cant stand her at times.   Sorry to say but I just cant stand her.  I just go over there to let the kids see them or mainly see my father but here recently my father is getting on my nerves.  IT seems like I cant do anything right.  I got a ticket a couple months and I didnt pay it cuz I havent had the $. I figured I would pay it after Xmas cuz that is more important.  I will just be careful when I am driving so I dont get pulled over.  Well the cops ended up calling my parents house saying I need to pay this ticket (its for running a stop sign) or I would be pulled over and go to jail and all this other blah blah crap.  Now here where I live right now I wouldnt go to Jail unless I murdered someone or had drugs cuz our jails are too full especially the womens one. I would jsut get recited and have another court date.  BUT my parents are freaking out and teling my aunt all this crap which she knows is a bunch of bullcrap.  I realized I am not the best child cuz I got married and then seperated and have 3 kids I dont work cuz of my bone disease and back but jesus  I love and take care of my kids the best of my abilities and I do a damn good job.  I help my aunt around here with housework and she appreciates it!  TOo bad my parents never did when I lived there!   I dont think they will ever change! 

Ok enuff of me ranting and raving  I need to get off of here!