Finally a breakthrough....LOL!  Like I said in my previous post I have been talking to Adam and trying to get sex from him.  I finally think I have succeeded and even had a reason on why I havent gotten it from him in the past yr.  He thought I would tell his gf since her and I were once friends.  PSHT!!!  I dont think so!  Thats her loss.  SHe knew EVERYTHING about him cuz her and I were bestfriends so its her choice to be cheated on!  But I guess she thinks she can "change" him!  Anyone who knows Adam knows NO woman can change him and no woman ever will!  LMAO  Sooooo just to burn her some then for sure I will sleep with him!  My sweet lil revenge  ....he he!  Amanda....remember the lilreddevil with the whole psycho "I love you" gf????  I am starting to feel like that lildevil again!  LMAO  So yeah its just a matter of time till i get sex and Gawd do i need it!  LOLOL 

Oh yuuummmmmyyyy......I bought my alcoholic bevarage or should I say beverages last nite for New yrs!  Everyone who knows me knows I LOVE my Jack Daniels Lynchburg Lemonade.  Well since its been awhile I didnt know what other flavors they had and I came across   Jack Daniels  Lemon Jack Splash!  Its a mixture of lemon, lime, grapefruit and watermelon.  Wasnt too sure if I liked it so I decided I would open up one and try it so I know whether I would have to buy my favorite one tomorrow or not.  This one is awesome!  I love it!  Alot better than I thought it would be so now I have 3 of these left and 4 of my Strawberry Daiquiri left for tomorrow!  YYYEEAAAHHHHHH!!!!!  Of course I wont get drunk since I have my kids with me but I will be feeling good while they are sleeping!  LOLOL

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!!!

Ok to start this off  I havent had sex in over a year....grrrrrrrr.  My ex (Adam) used to be my fuckbuddy but since he has been with his newest gf I havent gotten any........ggggrrrrrrrrrr.   I have kept him as my fuckbuddy cuz he has been the best I ever had (except one guy but I no longer talk to him  :-()  I have only gotten off with one other guy cuz the other guys I have had were smaller than what I am used to...(Amanda...u know what I am talkin about  LOL)  Anyway....I am talking to Adam today and he asked if I would buy him Halo 1 (Xbox game) and I said I might but what do i get in return and he asked what do I want and I said I want a couple of things but u cant do it so there leads to his and I conversation.......... GGGRRRR!!!!  We are talking about sex or for me the lack of...LOL!   He is trying to tell me he isnt above avg or isnt any good at sex.........GGRRRRR!!!  Gee wonder why he is tellin me this....TO BOOST HIS EGO cuz he knows I wont tell him  "GEE Adam u suck" cuz in the past 15 yrs I have never told him that!   How come he cant share anymore?  If I could find a guy that is just as good as he is then I wouldnt have any probs but its very hard to find someone like him and he doesnt understand that!    I hate having these convos with him cuz he knows it drives me nuts!  I wish his gf wouldnt be there one time I would stop over and c what would happen!  I think he is starting to get frisky and want an out but I dont know that for sure!  I know he still has his other ex in the town he lives in that he still can have sex with but HEY if he wants me I aint gonna deny him!  LOL   I just need to somehow get him to help me out!  LOL

I dont know why but I am depressed today.  Not sure if its cuz of the New Yr coming or what.  I think its just a mixture of everything.  I am feeling lonely.....ugh.  Why cant I ever meet that special someone and it work out without being lied to or cheated on?  My ex goes from woman to woman and is happy as can be while he made my life miserable yrs ago!  When does he get his?????  I realize I havent tried finding anyone but thats hard to do with lack of babysitter...noone to go out with cuz all friends are married....and 3 kids.  I would like to find me a single dad cuz then they know about kids and having to deal with ex's.  *****sigh***  I dont think that will ever happen!  LOL 

Also its depressing about that Earthquake that killed thousands of all races and ages.  Reading other blogs on here I realize that certain people are just ignorant on their comments.  God isnt going to punish the innocent so that isnt why it happened!!!!!  PLUS those areas and islands had NOTHING to do with 9/11......ggggrrrrrrrr.   If God is going to punish then he needs to throw huge gigantic rocks at Osama and his people and they land ONLY on him and no innocent people get killed.  That would be a great punishment but we all know thats not going to happen. 

What does everyone want to happen in the New Yr? 

Another Christmas just passed and I survived....LOL!  The kids luved their gifts and now they are driving me nuts with them!  lol   I am having alot of fun playing with Madisons toys since she is my only grl!  She got this Fisher price house (Sorta a house  Its the front of one) and its the cutest thing so I am having a blast pressing all the buttons!  LOL

BUT Over all Xmas went well!  Digging out of the snow was the biggest part but I got out!  I never drove   Everyone picked me up so I could go to different places so it worked out! 

Now onto New Yrs!  Nothing planned for that except eating ALL day on New Yrs eve!  LOL

Snow emergency #3 is over but now its #2 but at least we can leave the house without going to jail or getting ticketed!  DONT worry...I AM NOT going anywhere.  <prays>  that the road will be drivable tomorrow though.

Talked to Adam and no way is he taking the boys or even his other 2 kids cuz his electricity is gone.  I guess with all the ice it knocked down powerlines so he has been without power since the middle of the nite and he is barely staying warm!  I feel sorry for his lil puppy!

I hope every one has a safe and warm holiday!  Becareful!  Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays!!!!!

I live in Southwest Ohio and we are expecting this big winter storm.  Somewhere between 6-10 inches of snow.  It wasnt supposed to start snowing till after noon sometime but when I woke up this morning it definitly already started soooooo I wonder if we are going to get more snow than originally planned........dunno!

My parents are taking the boys for the nite.....woohhhoooooo.  So I wont have the boys tonite or tomorrow nite (unless the snow screws that up).  The bedroom thing with my son I guess is working but it seems like he is downstairs more than upstairs.  Its such a fight and i get so sick and tired of fighting with him.  Yesterday was a huge day of fighting and it wasnt fun.

I forgot to tell u that my boys were persistant and wanted me to open my gift from them also on Sunday so I did.  I was telling them NO I want to wait but then finally Stephen got the gift and threw it in my lap sooooo I guess that was a hint that he really wanted me to open it!  LOL  It was a dolphin thing...sorta hard to explain.  It turn on and it moves back and forth and makes the 2 dolphins in this blue water go from side to side and it looks like waves.  I loved it cuz I luv dolphins!!!

3 more days till Xmas and its going to be COLD on Xmas eve and Xmas day!  Hopefully my kids dont get sick!

Happy Holidays to everyone!!!!!

This past weekend was OK.  Friday the boys went to their dads and then came home late Sat nite.  During the day on Sat, i took all the toys out of the boys room and put in what we are calling the Playroom now.  Kris has to learn his lesson on getting bad grades and not turning in his homework.  He is very smart but obviously not using it.  So now the only things in the boys room is books (so Kris can read for the next 2 weeks), their beds and their clothes.  He came home Sat and I told him to go upstairs and he said Oh now we have a play room and I said OH NO WE dont YOUR brother does cuz you are staying in your room till your report cards comes sometime in January.  His dad was standing right there (supporting my descision) so at least Kris couldnt scream at me Dad wont like this.  Of course Kris played it off and it didnt bother him and as soon as his dad left he was throwing a fit on how it wasnt fair and its just a stupid grade and stupid homework. <crosses fingers that this works>

The boys got some nice outfits from Jeanines sister.  She got the boys clothes from Old Navy which shocked me.  They forgot to bring Madi's gift so she can open it so that will be done on Xmas eve.  I let Adam open his gift from ALL his kids since the grls were there also when he dropped the boys off.  He loved the gift!  It was a picture charm tree and had a pic of each of his kids.  God I am sooooo thoughtful!  LOL

Since my aunts kids are grown they get anxious and want there Xmas presents early and my aunt loves letting them open them up early so she gave me her gift early!   It was a Frydaddy!  I LOVE THAT THING!  Never used one before in my life but always wanted one!  So I tried that out on Sat and loved it!  

Sunday was a boring day cuz it was TOOOOOOOOO COLD to do anything!  So it was a stay at home day to stay warm!  LOL

Now today is the start of Xmas vacation for the boys!  UUUGGGHHHH!!!  So in reality this is the day where i start pulling my hair out!  LOL  This is the day of fighting and yelling and stressing!  Woohhooo....NOT!    I have been up a lil over an hour and so far so good....LOL!   I am also PMSing so this wont be a good week for the boys to push it with their MOM!  LOLOL

On Thursday the boys are going to their dads again to get his gifts (which Santa comes early to his house) and they will be spending the nite.  Then they come home early on Xmas eve and we go to Kentucky to my aunts friends house cuz she got the kids stuff (she never met my kids either except for my lil one) and then we come home and go to Adams sisters house and celebrate Xmas with his family!    This will definitly be a good yr for the boys and getting gifts! 

5 days till Christmas!  HAPPY HOLIDAYS!!!!!!!!!!!

Later on today the boys go to their dads for the nite.  I was supposed to go to Festival of Lights tonite but my aunts friend is sick so we are postponing it.    So that was my big plan for the weekend so now I am not doing anything  LOL

My oldest son is having trouble in school.....UGH!  He is very smart but doesnt always use it.  He isnt doing his homework and is failing some tests.  His teacher called me and of course when he got home it was a huge fight cuz it wasnt his fault his grades are like this........ggggrrrrrr.  I have no clue on what to do with him.  I am at wits end.  So i think I am going to take a page from Dr Phil and take everything out of his room except his bed and put the toys in the extra bedroom that was being used for storage so Stephen can still play.  I am going to do this while they are at their dads tonite and when Kris comes home tomorrow he will be surprised.  I just have no clue on what else to do cuz I have done EVERYTHING else and nothing has worked.  He is very stubborn!  Not sure if this idea will work but its worth a try!  All i know is its going to be a long 2 weeks while they are on Xmas break!  Today is their last day!  UUUUGGGGHHHHH!!!

Here is my 15 month old daughter new trick......shove her fingers down her throat so she gags...she has done this for awhile but now as of yesterday she will do this till she pukes.  Oh yeah........she tried doing this today but no puke THANK GOD!!!!!!!!  I have no clue on how to make her stop!  my mom says IGnore her when she does this and then she will get bored and find something new to try on me!    My other 2 kids would gag themselves a couple of times and realize they ddint like that but OH NO not her!  SHe loves gagging herself!   <shakes head>  Only my kid would like something like that!  Do u think she gets this from her dad?????  LOLOL  I think i should have stopped at my 2nd child but I wanted my lil grl and now I have her and she is soooooo evil!  LOL    I think the more kids you have the worse they act!  LOL  My oldest was an angel as a baby and my 2nd child was way worse and now HER  is way worse then the 2 boys put together!  I am not thinking on what she will be like when she is older.....I am in for some fun times with her I am sure!  LOLOL

Happy Holidays!!!!!

Today is such a sllllooooowwww moving day.  The internet is moving slow...tblog is moving slow...time is moving slow and I am waiting for my daughter to move slow but I dont think that will ever happen  cuz she moves at lightening speeds!  I feel like I am moving slow today!  I dont feel like moving at all!  If i could lay in bed today I would have done so but I couldnt!  I had kids to get off to school and a 15 month old to deal with and we all know she wont sleep in!  LOLOL  I am not even tired  I just feel BLAH!  I dont know why I feel like this but I do! 

This Friday the boys are spending the nite at their dads.  Its on an off weekend but its cause Jeanine (Adams gf) sister got the kids gifts and this Sat is when they are exchanging gifts.  I still think this whole idea of her getting them gifts is wierd considering she has never met them but Oh well!  Her sis wanted to see Madison but she wont be there since I WONT be there....ha ha ha ha.  She can see pics of her!  The boys will be back Sat nite after they go to the Manger with his family!  I was supposed to go but I wont have a car.  I doubt if Adam will volunteer to give me a ride!  LOL  But thats OK  Its supposed to be cold so its better that I will be at home very warm!  I will see his family on Xmas eve.

OMG  I am freezing!  I hate being this cold.  I realize there are alot of people who live in other states who get colder than this but uuuugggghhh its cold.  Its prolly around 20 degrees out and tomorrow morning is supposed to be more colder!  UUUGGGGHHHHHHHH!!!!!!&nbs p; I am always checking to see if Madison is warm cuz of course since she is little she cant tell me when she is cold so thank god she sleeps with me so all i have to do is roll over and make sure she is warm!

I do have to say  TY to the Peterson jury for giving him a death sentence.  I think the jury did right!!!!!!!!!!!!  I DO believe he killed his wife and child and I DO believe he should die for it.  I hope they give him hell in jail ( thats the nice way to put it).  I know it will be many yrs till it actually happens but during that time his life in jail will be hell cuz sooooooooo many guys will want a piece of him! 

Our Xmas tree looks like crap!  It looked good over a week ago but now between kittens and child....it looks like crap!  The kittens like climbing to the top of the tree and batting at the ornaments and knocking down the beads and then Madi is at the bottom pulling the beads they knocked down OFF the tree so she can drag the string along and have the kittens chase her.  The fun part is having 2 kittens chase one another INSIDE the tree......UUUGGGHHH!!!!  A couple of the presents that are already underneath the tree are becoming unwrapped no thanks to the kittens but at least those are Madi's and since she doesnt know any better it wont hurt her!  I am just afraid what ALL the gifts will look like on Xmas!  <shakes head at the thought of what could happen.....LOL) 

11 more days till Xmas!  WOOHHOOOOO!!!!!  17 days till New Yrs Eve!  Another new yr to look fwd to!!!!!!!!!!!

12 more days till Xmas!  Woohoooooo!!!  I got my Xmas wrapping done except for 4 gifts but at least the boys are all wrapped.  So the big thing on my list to do this weekend got done.  Too bad nothing else did!  LOL 

It wasnt a bad weekend.  I went out to dinner with my aunt.  (Not the one I  live with) and then we went to a craft store to see if they had paint pens.  These were something I never knew were around till a few months ago when my son had a family nite at school and used paint pens to draw on glass candle holders.  NO mess and dried instantly!  SO i thought of getting these for my boys so then I could buy glass jars and they could decorate them and give it out for gifts.  It was supposed to happen for Xmas but i forgot to look for the pens.  The pens arent cheap either.  Individually they are around $4 or a pack of 4 is between 15-20 dollars depending on the name brand (and I have no clue what the name brand means  LOL)  BUT I definitly recommend these pens if anyone has children and they want to draw with paint and make something cute for somebody that will last a long time!!!!!!!

While I was at the craft store I started talking to my aunt about scrapbooking.  I have never done it but I am interested in it and i thought maybe I could do a scrapbook for Adam (kids dad) next yr for Xmas and maybe a couple other ones for different family members.  If I start early then I could learn and figure out how i want to do it.  My aunt bought me a book about scrapbooking and I will get that on Xmas!   Does anyone scrapbook and if so is it cheap and is it easy to do?  I dont consider myself a crafty person so not too sure on how easy this will be!  I have LOTS of ideas but whether they will work out or not I have no clue!  LOL

YEEHAW its Friday!  My boys are going to their dads this weekend so I get to finish my gift wrapping!  How fun!  NOT!!!!  That is my big plan for the weekend.  Other than that I have NOTHING planned.

My oldest had a Xmas program 2 nites ago and it was sooooo cute.  Hearing 5th graders out of tune is really fun  but they all looked adorable dressed up. 

OH yeah  I still have my big date with Mike or should I say my big fake date!  LOL  I cant wait till he gets stood up!  Serves him right!  UGH  I hate men!

Another boring day but I did have a little fun....hehe <evil grin>   Well I have 3 names on AOL and one is my main name and the other 2 are my other names noone knows about.  Well Mike found my 2nd one (still doesnt know its me...LOL) and now he has found my 3rd still DOESNT know its me.  We are supposed to meet on Saturday!  LMAOOOOOOO  Too bad I wont show up!  <huge evil grin>  This name I am recently seperated and not sure about wanting to meet people but i guess I could meet him  LMAO  Totally described myself differently and act differently!  He just thinks I am soooo nice under this name!  Gawd I cant wait for him to show up an hour away from where he lives to meet me and I WONT be there!  Then he will know how it feels (if he even shows up  LOL)  I just have so much fun when I go under this name and there he is!  Cuz he is sooooooo stupid!  lololololol

Yesterday my luvly sis (UGH) was lecturing me on me finding someone and that is what I should be doing.  Ummmmm Ummmmmm ok!  I have been single for 5 yrs and dated a couple people but nothing lasting.  She just thinks its sooooo easy to find a nice guy who doesnt mind 3 kids and who isnt into looks.  I am not drop dead gorgeus and skinny!  I have a tummy (not totally fat) and I am cute but guys dont think I am all that!  She never had any trouble finding a guy like I have!  But thats OK!  I dont mind being single!  YES I would like to find me a relationship but I also have to think of my kids!  My oldest gets attatched very easily and if it wouldnt work out he would be crushed!  Then finding a guy who just would be interested in going out every other weekend when my kids are with their dad is something different also!  I DONT want my kids to get hurt if it wouldnt work out cuz they have been through it ALOT with their dad and all his many girlfriends!  So for her to lecture me slightly pissed me off!  Just cause she found the man of her dreams and she thinks she will be happier ever after and my marriage was shit she still shouldnt fucking lecture and judge!  She is gonna have a marriage like my parents!  She is a bitch and her hubby will do anything just to make her happy whether he is or isnt!  My father is miserable but he stays with her cuz he doesnt want to be alone!  UGH  I didnt meant to rant and rave over this but it just gets to me!

Ok to start off I thought I found this great website.  It takes the coupons u get in your Sunday paper and compares them to whats on sale at your fav grocery store and then lets u know what coupons goes with what sales and what past coupons if u have any go with the current sales!  So u can save ALOT of money!  BUT and of course its a HUGE BUT  u have to pay $15 a MONTH to get that service!  GGGGRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!&nb sp; So what u can save a month u pay in that service! It makes no damn sense to me!    So that severely upset me when I thought I found something great!   Starting this monday off really good!  LOL

Also something else that makes no sense to me is that the father of my kids (ADAM) got a new puppy this past weekend.  He sent me a pic of her this morning and she is adorable!  What makes no sense to me is how the hell is he going to afford a damn puppy when he cant help me with my kids???? (NO i havent gone after child support but I am going to)  Yes his GF lives with him now so that helps but STILL!  GGGGRRRRRRRRRR  He is gonna be screwed when I go after Childsupport cuz he barely makes enuff now to survive and when he has to pay for my kids he is SCREWED!  Oh well not my prob!

WWWOOOHHHHOOOOOOO!!!!!!&n bsp;  My shopping is DONE!  <does the Xmasshopping is done dance>  I have a couple of odds and ends gift that I can get at the dollar store but I am DONE!  I got Madisons gifts and one last thing for Stephen (middle son).  I love Madisons gifts.  I guess since she is my grl I just think they are sooooo cute.  I got her a sight and sounds Kitchen, and a Mega Bloks house set (of course in PINK..LOL) and some other things that make noise since she likes that kind of stuff.  I am just soooo relieved its done cuz last yr I was a scatterbrain not knowing how I was gonna get toys for my kids (it did work out in the end).  This yr is totally different!   22 days left till CHRISTMAS!!!!!!

I cant believe there is only 29 days left of 2004.  Where did this yr go???  I do have to say this yr is ending a hell of alot better than last yr thank god.  This yr was a pain in the ass but I got through it....thankfully for my aunt.  If it wasnt for her I would be not having a good last half of the yr. 

What do I want for 2005?  Well of course all the normal stuff...I want health and happiness for everyone I know and I want my kids to stay healthy and for things to go well for them.  I think I just want to find myself a good man....LMAOOOOOOOOO.  Is there any out there cuz I seem like I cant find any.  Been single for 5 yrs and thought its time for me to find another relationship.  Yeah me...lol  I am not going to try too hard and the only way I can actually go look is here on the internet.....UGH cuz all my friends are married so its pretty hard to go out and I WONT go out by myself.    So it will be an interesting yr.  

As for the Mike situation I was supposed to meet him on Sat but my aunt has Pneumonia so she cant watch Madi so I thought of bringing her and now he doesnt want to meet since I will have her.  UUUGGGHH!!!  Obviously he just wants sex and that aint gonna happen the first time we meet so I guess we will never meet.  Oh well his loss not mine.

This weekend we are putting up the Xmas tree...fun fun.  Next weekend we are hopefully going to the Festival of Lights at the Zoo and the following weekend Adam will have them on an off weekend cuz his gf's sister is coming over and giving the kids gifts...how odd is that.  She has never met my kids nor Adam but bought his kids stuff!  OH well!  Then that nite we are going to the manger with Adams family.  I was invited by his grandma so I guess I will go so everyone can see Madi.  The following weekend after that is Xmas!  WOOHHHOOOO.  So the whole month of December is going to be busy!  YYYEEAAHHHH.....not!  Just hopefully my kids dont get sick and then all will be well!