Thank god I am feeling better.  For the past week I have been feeling like crap.  Madison is feeling better also so thats a relief cuz she has been such a grouch.

This weekend was BORING!  I did nothing except rest cuz of me not feeling well.  Hopefully next weekend will be a lil more adventful.  The boys will be with their dad so I get time to myself a lil bit.

I still feel like shit but its a lil bit better today.  I am not as stuffy but now being in this mood I am feeling blah.  I need to get laid and that sure in the hell aint gonna happen anytime soon.  GGRRRR!!!  Adam is willing but lack of opportunity......UGH!  I am sure that would make me feel soooo much better and lift my spirits but as of right now I am still without and now its going on 18 months without!!!!!

According to what GMA (good morning america) said this morning..Today is supposed to be the most depressing day of the yr cuz of the weather and the fact that prolly noone has kept up with their New Yrs resolution.  Well yes the weather is depressing...its cold and snowy out side but as for New Yrs resolutions I really didnt make any except getting laid sometime this yr!  So yes today is depressing!  LOLOL

Since Adam didnt take the boys this weekend I was expecting a hard weekend since I wasnt feeling good BUT the boys were really good this weekend so that helped out alot!  Hopefully Adam is gonna stop by this coming weekend to visit the boys since they have been good plus he needs time with Madison.   Other than that no plans for the weekend but their is still plenty of time!

Why do kids have to be off of school???  WWWWHHHYYYYY???  I am goin insane!  The kids have been hyper since yesterday...ggggrrrrrr.  Madi has been getting into EVERYTHING...can we say she is entering the terrible 2's at 16 months.  The boys have just been wrestling, arguing, asking me 10 millions questions which are all about the same thing just different ways to ask so they DONT ask the SAME question in a row!  UGH!!!   CALGONE TAKE ME AWAY!!!  I cant wait till I take a shower so I get a lil bit of peace and quiet!  I need a sound proof room!  I remember that Cosby show and Claire got that.....WHERE'S MINE??????

Stephens bday is coming up in Feb.  Feb 13th to be exact and he is gonna be 8.  I think I am just gonna get him a Meijers gift card and let him get what he wants.  My mom got him a gift card part of his Xmas presents from her and he loved it since he could get what he wanted.  Soooo I asked him if he would like that for his bday and he said OH YEAH!!!  SO I guess that is what I will do cuz he is getting older and I have no clue what he wants anymore.  Also on the day of his bday he wants to go to Applebees and have his dad come so I talked to his dad today and he said he would come down and go out to dinner with us so that will be a fun day for Stephen.  I wanted to give him a bday party but I really dont have the $ for that so I think this will do.  Neither one of my kids have had a "real" bday party with friends cuz I have never had the $ for all that.  We always celebrate it and do something nice but i just wish I would have the $ to do something fun with their friends!  Does anyone know anything cheap to do for a bday party????

Keep in mind my boys are 10 and 8.  Bedtime should be at 9 BUT they never go to bed on time cuz of fighting or goofing around that I put them in bed at 7:30 sooooo hopefully they are sleeping at 9 and I get peace and quiet so here goes my last nite......

7:30pm-  Boys come in and give me a kiss and say good nite and I hear them going up the stairs.  Few minutes later they are back down and I shoo them back up  Few more minutes later they are back down having to say Good nite again and once again I shoo them back up  This goes on for about 15 more minutes and now i have had the final straw and said I am going to spank them if they dont go to bed

8:15pm-  I saw at the bottom of the stairs (boys didnt know I was there) so I wouldnt have to be coming out of my room constantly.  As I am sitting there I can hear the boys talking and here is the convo word for word:

Stephen (7yr old)-  U know we always go to be better if mom busts our butt

Kris (10 yr old)-  Yeah thats true  Once mom busts our butt we go to bed right away and we go to sleep

Stephen-  Well maybe we should go down and get out butts busted

Kris- Ok  Who goes first???

Stephen-  It dont matter I will

Kris-  No I will go first and get my butt busted and then its your turn

Stephen- OK

NOW my mouth is dropped when I hear this!  YES busting their butts work to get them to go to bed but its a last resort after hours of fighting with them and to hear this I soooooo wanted to die laughing.

Kris and Stephen come out of their room and see me at the bottom of the stairs shocked to see me.  Kris said we want our butts busted so we go to bed mom.  So they line up against the couch and I bust their butts...they cry....and off to bed they go and I dont hear another word from them....  can I say OMG!!!!  I go to my aunts room and just die laughing cuz I have never heard of kids WANTING their butts busted to go to bed.  Soooo what am I supposed to do?  Bust their butts everynite so they go to bed since it works and OBVIOUSLY they know it works but is that right????  hell if I know!!!  I just thought I would share this very funny story!!!  Am I the only one out there that has kids like this???  LOL

This weekend went way too fast!  LOL  But it was a good weekend.  I went shopping with my aunt on Saturday.  I didnt get anything but still had fun!  Then we went out to eat at Pleasant Ridge Chili and I havent ate their in over a yr and gawd did I miss it.  It has the best cheese fries and gravy!  Yes I said gravy!  DONT knock it till u try it!  It sounds nasty and even looks nasty but yummy yummy its soooooo good!!!!!!!

This weekend I have been doing alot of thinking!  I have ALOT of issues when it comes to my mother that has followed me through out adulthood.  Its coming close to venting everything I feel about her past and present cuz she keeps being a bitch.  ALOT of people feel the same way I do but wont tell her Nor back me up cuz they dont want to piss her off and feel the wrath of my mother.  If u dont live YOUR life the way she feels you should then she lectures and bitches and has total attitude AND she is VERY controlling.  I havent talked to my one friend in over 3 months cuz my friend got pissed cuz I wouldnt take it somewhere (cuz Madi was sick) soooooo NOW my mother talks to her and prolly vents about me to her!  How dare she!!!  This WAS my friend!  I dont think she would like it if I would call her friends and start bitching about her!  Thats the MAIN reason I DONT talk to that friend anymore cuz she does talk to my mom and she knows its pisses me off cuz its none of my moms business on some of the things they talk about.   Everytime my mom comes over to "visit"  my skin crawls and I am sooooooo tense.  The reason I use visit in quotes is cuz she ALWAYS has another agenda to visit.....like to pull my aunt in the other room and find out what I am screwing up now!  Yesterday her and my dad stopped over (UGH!) and immediately she pulled my aunt aside (hhheeeelllooooo I am 31 years old and I am NOT stupid when she does this shit) so I just sat there and talked to my dad.  Then she came back in and acted like nothing is wrong..........gggggrrrrrrrrrrr.  I was thinking about going to see a therapist about how i feel about her and to see what I can do about my issues but not sure if it would really help cuz I know whats wrong with me and what issues I have.  BUT venting them out to her PROLLY would help me get it off my chest BUT yet my mom wouldnt think anything is wrong or believe how I feel or believe she acted any certain way sooooooo why vent to her if she isnt gonna realize how she is!  I just dont know what to do!!!!  UUUUGGGGHHHHHH!!!

I am extremely bitchy today sooooo BEWARE!  Yesterday I was online for an hour and my cousins bf woke up and SAW me online and then went back downstairs.....an hour later he booted me offline and got online....ggggrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.  That soooooo pissed me off but being the nice person I am I didnt say anything!  He was online ALL DAMN DAY!!!!  Hours and hours I couldnt get back on to play!  UUUUGGGGHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!& nbsp; I sooooo need DSL!  I wish I could find a cheap DSL.

This weekend the boys go to their dads!  How fun!  I guess i will go up there on Sunday to pick them up!  Too bad Jeanine will be there or I could get laid!  UGH!  My evil mind is trying to think of ideas on how to get laid and everything I think of WONT work when it comes to finding time to be with HIM without getting caught and WITHOUT kids around!   gggggrrrrrr!

Another rainy day in Cincy!  Last week it was MOUNDS of snow and now all the snow is gone and its rainy!  At least its not cold out!  I am just sooooooooo bored!  Today I went shopping and got each of my children a new book and then I exchanged a book I got cuz I ended up with 2 of the same!  My mom got me a booklight so hopefully this one will last and not take thousands of batteries a month.   Now my quiet day is coming to an end...my oldest just walked through the door so here comes the fighting and arguing!  HOW FUN!  LOL  Over all he has been good in the past few days so I am thank ful for that!  Hopefully he will start being good!

WOOHOOOOO!!!  Kids go back to school tomorrow!  I get my sanity back!!!  I am sooooo ready for them to go back cuz I am going nuts.  Them fighting over EVERYTHING and competing for EVERYTHING!  Running down people in Krogers just to c who will be the first one to find me Ketchup.....ugh!  I always saw the kids who would run around like wildanimals and I was always appalled that there was no parent around or yelling at them and (head goes down) I am one of those parents with those Yelling and running around kids!!!!!!!  THEY DONT LISTEN in public cuz they know I wont beat their ass cuz someone will think I am killing them and call the cops!  LOL  So they know they can get away with murder but needless to say I have figured out a way to keep them SOMEWHAT behaved in public when I can get ahold of them.....Hold their hands and SQUEEZE!!!!!!!!!!!!  Noone will notice that u are doing anything wrong cuz it just looks like u are holding your kids hand but u know u are applying pressure that hurts but gets them to straighten up!!!!!!   I hate taking them out in public but there are times where I must!!!!

Today I went to Borders bookstore and got 6 new books so I will get plenty of reading done!  Right now I am reading Dean Koontz...False Memory and so far that book is REALLY good!  I love to read!  My next book is James Patterson...3rd Degree.  I LOVE James Patterson!! He is a great author!  Any book ideas from anyone???